Weaselporking HELL I’m tired! (#2 won’t let me swear on the blog)
I posted before about hacking my work habits. This is all very well and good, but one thing that’s slowing me down is that I can’t seem to properly tweak my mana. I am exhausted all the time. Mother of heck, I’m tired! If I have free time I can fall asleep at the drop of a hat and “accidentally” nap for 3 or 4 hours. It’s not that I’m not sleeping at night, either, because I am: at least 7 hours on weeknights, 8 hours if I can get it. (more and more these days I’m starting to go to bed early, even though I am naturally a night owl.) On weekends I’ll sleep all day, and I’m not depressed. This doesn’t vary with season, only with time in the semester. It’s true in both semesters, every year without fail. It has been for a long time.
This level of exhaustion is totally normal for me during the semester, but grinding. Every few years I think, “This can’t be right,” and go to the doctor and pay them a bunch of money. They run a bunch of tests, check for anemia and thyroid problems, etc. Two weeks later I get a note back from the doctor that says all my labs were normal and I should try to reduce my stress. Thanks a lot, genius. I already *knew* that part.
People who say “exercise gives you energy!”? Those people LIE. They are lying liars who lie. Even moderate walks outside make me want to lie down. Crushing exhaustion is one reason I have to leave my house to work: otherwise, it’s much too likely that I’ll fall asleep. I’ve tried meditation but it makes me fall asleep.
Does anyone have suggestions for how to improve my energy levels, feel more alert and more able to think, and less tired? Caffeine only goes so far and I can only ingest so much of it. Help! I’m not depressed and my internal chemistry seems fine. Is my system just set much lower than everyone else’s? Will I ever experience the middle of the bell curve on individual differences? I’m not sick, just tired. Very, very tired.