I’ve talked about my addictive personality before in terms of why I don’t play video games and how it’s difficult for me to get off fora (until I’m kicked off or quit cold turkey).
I almost never drink coffee. Usually this is because when I get a migraine, coffee + aspirin + sleep is the only way to make it go away, so I want to keep my tolerance low. But occasionally after a bad night I’ll partake in some decaf or when things are really bad, a full cup of regular. I almost never do this more than 2 days in a row. And never after 11am if I want to get any sleep at night.
Recently I had some bad deadline times. So I drank coffee for a full 7 days, starting with a cup of decaf and ending with 2 cups of regular by the time the week was over. I started craving it and could feel it making my life better.
Then I turned in the thing and crashed hard. The next day I had a major headache and had a cup of decaf to try to wean down. It helped a little but not enough. When the weekend came, I stopped drinking coffee and ended up in bed with a pounding headache. I kept wanting coffee so badly. A little sip of DH’s salted caramel mocha made angels sing in my head, but wasn’t enough to truly make things right.
I still want coffee.
Most people can drink caffeine for 7 days straight (some of them decaf or only half a cup!) and then go cold-turkey with maybe only a little bit of tiredness as an effect. I can’t.
Most people take longer to become truly addicted to something. Apparently not me.
I had Valium once prior to a surgery. If it were available OTC, I would eventually never leave my bed. I still want Valium.
So, this is why I don’t do drugs. Because it doesn’t take me long to crave them and to crash when I don’t get them. And it’s scary not being in control of my body. Also, I don’t like withdrawal symptoms.
Do you have problems with addiction? Do you ever wean yourself off caffeine? How does that go?