Posting continues to be scattered and sparse. On top of #2’s recent loss of her father-in-law, and red tape kinds of problems resulting from that for her mother-in-law (adding insult to injury), and everything else that is going on in the world, her cat is having some pretty major health problems. He started out with some health problems when she got him last year, but they seem to be getting worse and more varied. She’s having a rough time of it so the posts she was planning on books and on reviewing a vegetarian service that is like Blue Apron (called Purple Carrot– she likes it) are just going to have to wait until her world is no longer a dumpster fire.
My life right now is:
- I’m way behind on research, like months behind. Re-entry from leave has been harsh. I am far too scattered and need to get back into a rhythm. So far I have been trying to add structure and then completely ignoring it once push comes to shove. This is also how I’ve been reacting to money things. It’s like, most of my life I’ve been running scared and when there’s no reason to worry anymore I just give up because nothing is a big deal. But I really don’t have that luxury even if it seems like it because DH could lose his job or I could have to leave this one, and I do care about my research reputation and my salary, and I would far rather argue for salary increases because of my scholarly reputation than because I’ve decided to go into administration.
- My mind has been in political action. I bumped the post I had scheduled for today on campus hate activities because it was too depressing on top of everything else #2 is going through.
- I am at the point in the semester where a lot of my students are really getting it and realizing they’re getting it and that is lovely.
- I’m doing an elective next semester that is going to be more difficult than usual because of current events. Generally we hit Medicare in April. By April Medicare may no longer exist as it does in my lecture notes. I don’t like having uncertainty in my lecture notes. I also have well over 2x the students that I normally have in that class, so I’m going to have to restructure teaching methods from a small seminar to a larger class.
- On the day after the election, I took the ebook server from paradise that I still have access too, searched for “regency”, then sorted the 777 items therein by author’s last name. I have been systematically reading all of them that have 4 or more stars on either goodreads or amazon (with a few exceptions for close to 4 but the synopsis looks interesting, or not reading those that are 4 that have rape or another one of the things that life is too short to read about). The Bs and Cs had some really good stuff that I’ll be talking about in our next what are we reading post, but there have been a lot of duds since then. I’m on the Ks now. This was really helpful for getting me to get out of post-election depression and more focused on what I can do.
- DH went to a local dems meeting (that from meetup didn’t look like the monthly meeting and had only 4 people signed up). There were >30 people there and it was pretty disorganized, but not disorganized enough for him to try to take over, and not organized enough that it looks like it’s going to be easy to be a part of it. The person in charge is someone who talks a lot and goes on lots of tangents and doesn’t stick to the agenda but kind of meanders around the agenda. But at least there was an agenda. DH left with no action items and had to look up some of the terms she’d used. He has no interest in being a precinct leader. We’re not sure what to do. There’s people who want to do things and can be harnessed for power, but they have no direction, unless they want to do this time-consuming thing that is geared towards extroverts. My sister reports similar levels of disorganization with the official democratic organization in her city. The woman’s organization she joined, however, sounds just phenomenal. Focused, brought in outside speakers about strategy, etc. I will probably take my sister’s suggestion and call them to ask for advice.
- I do think right now that political action is worth slowing my research down for. But I can’t slow it as much as it has been. That probably means cutting the regencies, not posting regularly on Tuesdays, and being more focused on work when I’m at work (even though some of our new hires are chatty). Possibly also adding half a day or more of work back into weekends.
How are you all doing?